I feel so lazy to go online..
Actually I have many problems with my family now.. specially with my father..
He's not my real father but I consider he is.. in my whole life!
But he has another wife and also another children... I don't like the way my father treats them!
My childhood is not so lovely.. most of time I remember that I was being lonely.. my father used to be a high-tempered person and I was so scared with him.
Now everything's changing.. He's so kind with his own children.. All their needs are his command! While I had to hold my breath when I wanted something... really wanted something..
I had to beg with my Mom and then my Mom deliver it to my Father and got rejected...He was using the word that it's for my safety.. it's good to save money... etc..
While his children got all things that they want in a snap of a finger!
Darn!!!
Sometimes my heart hurts and I'm crying inside to know that.. Not only that I have to "share" my Father (which is actually not my blood father) and have to watch the unfair love from him..
So so sad... 
